In the Spring of last year, it was decided (after a very long time of back & forth, family therapy, & prayer) that Keia would spend her Jr year of High School living in California with her Dad. This was the hardest, most difficult decision I feel I've had to make in my life so far, and I so badly wanted to be selfish with her and just say, 'no'. But as a mother, as we all know, when it comes to your kids, there is rarely room to be selfish. In late August we as a family, took her to the SLC Airport & sent her off.
& at first I was just really, really sad.
I don't know if I was depressed, but as someone who doesn't often feel depressed or sad, I don't quite have the most awesome coping mechanisms for feelings of sadness. So, I threw myself into work, and a quick trip back home to Hawaii, and other responsibilities which all worked as perfect distractions. I set blogging aside quite a bit because it was honestly painful. I missed Keia so much and I just didn't feel like taking outfit pics, because all of it just reminded me of her and the fact she wasn't here. I would say I was definitely in kind of a 'funk' for about the first month & 1/2. I think it was just super hard for me to accept, but once I accepted that she was there for the rest of the school year, I was able to be okay, and not be so fixated on Keia being gone, and I was able to get back to being more of the happy Momma, Wife, & person that I feel like I am normally. :)
I started 'training' & paying my daughter Eden to take outfit pics again, and even with work having become more demanding, I was able to get back into the swing of things pretty well for a little while there. I was excited for the Holiday's, having my parents out to Utah from Hawaii, and of course having Keia home for 2 weeks for the Christmas break!
Justin & took a cruise with close friends over Thanksgiving while the kids' were at their other parents' and my plans after that were to get back to work, and blogging, and getting Christmas ready for the family. My girlfriend & I planned a surprise early Christmas gift for the guys with a weekend trip to Vegas to watch a college football game the weekend right before Christmas, which also happened to fall on Justin's & my anniversary. We had a super fun road trip down, went to the game on Saturday, dinner & the Jabowokeez show that night, and then that Sunday morning, Dec 20th ( our anniversary), we decided to head to the breakfast buffet to eat before heading back to Utah. We had been standing in line for about 45 min when I remember my eyes going blurry, and the next thing I remember I was lying on the ground and Justin kept saying, 'babe?', 'babe?', 'are you okay?' 'babe?'. As I more & more came back into consciousness, I realized I must have fallen and I was also in a great deal of pain. I had fainted, and by the time Justin had realized what was happening, he wasn't able to do anything. My face broke my fall, with my chin impacting first. As a result I split my chin open, fractured my jaw, and shattered several teeth. I also have virtually no feeling in my bottom lip due to the nerve damage that occurred at impact, and if I do get feeling back, it will take months. I had my jaw surgery 3 days before Christmas, on the 22nd. I have now had my jaw wired shut for almost 2 weeks, and have 2 weeks more to go. After that I will go through the rehabilitation of my bite/jaw & restoration of my teeth which will include braces for a time.
So, this is what has been going on with me :). Eden took these outfit pics days before my accident. I'm so glad we pulled over on the side of the road that day so she could snap these! This was one of those outfits that just seemed to come together perfectly at the last minute. With the day time below freezing temps here, layering right is survival right now! :)
Anyway, I am doing my best to stay busy & positive and not miss food so much!
ha! I am so grateful for the amazing & loving support of my family and friends. I am excited to continue learning from & seeing the blessings in the trials that I am going through right now. I am also excited to continue with my blog this year. When I posted THIS QUOTE & caption to my Instagram the week of my accident, I didn't realize how much I would need the encouragement from myself right now! I may not be smiling as big or at all in pics for a little while, but I am looking forward to continuing my fashion journey with you all thru 2016. & I truly am so grateful to you all for reading & for all your kind words & encouragement.
X O - Pualei